The clock just ticked to 1:56 AM and this is the fourth night of next-to-nothing sleep. Maybe its the late night coffees or just maybe I’m on thinker overdrive.
Today I did sweet-fanny-atom! As you can clearly read I’m lacking in the motivation department.
Its been a week since I’ve been at the gym and I’ve been eating house with several cups of coffee consumed per day. This can’t be good! My blase (yes relax … insert the aigu on the e … and insert middle finger while you’re at it! I cant figure it out alright!) mood is really played out already. Its one of those things that you know you should change because you’re only going to keep bitching about it, but yet you are too flippin lazy to do anything about it.
So as promised I have included for you kiddies some photographs of my escapades and moods these past two weekends all of which included lunches, wine, dinners, wine, parties, baking, beach, sulking and feeling sorry for myself … oh and wine.
My new fave colour combo
I thought shopping would help the mood … the high was very temporary. I was indecisive about the dress, but snagged the belt at a ridiculous good price.
Bad mood a la goth.
This was Time Wasting 101 at its finest. I was bored and the gang was taking forever to get primped and dolled. We had dinner this night at Yonge & Egg.
Can you see the self hate in my face? Theres more of this below.
A failed attempt at trying to love me.
You know the whole saying about loving yourself first … horseradish, its blasphemous. Even in my self loathing, there’s one person that I love more than the air that I breathe and that’s lil’ miss C. Its not to say that I don’t recognize the need to love me, I just don’t think that I am ready for that kind of lovin.
Here are some random pics taken on the way to dinner.
Check out the mass of garbage that Toronto can produce in one sitting. Impressed or what?
wtf? uh... heard of recycle much?
cupcake mobile
And how ingenious is this? Selling the bastard’s clothes! brilliant.
The next day I went shopping again and found this gem. I want the orange one for my pad.
One of my fave bloggers (www.raymitheminx.com) is going to rip into me for the hair, but I was way too LAZY to pimp it. Loved this tank paired with the varsity cardi but couldn’t justify the dollar. I will most probably change my mind and go back for them cuz that’s how I roll (usually).
We had lunch at Jack Astors and I, of course, caved and had the chicken fajitas and a pomegranite margarita slushy thingy… it was aiight.
This past Sunday I decided to get away and take the long awaited trip North to Tiny. This is the view from my folks’ cottage.
Le Beach
These two occupied prime sand castle building real estate. Totally must have sucked back way too much vino cuz they were in this position for the entire three hours that we were there … ah, sweet drunk love.
All hope was not lost … we found another spot
Cast aways … well not really, its my brother and his girlfriend.
Token party shot from Anna’s dirty 30 at Ultra.
We were on the patio all night … gotta love the humid hair, hence the quick fix sorta up do.
Oh and straight from the desk of the insomniac cupcake whore …
Lest us not forget the two dozen cupcakes that I was commissioned to make for a bachelorette party.
corset cake
So there you have it. Probably the longest post you’ll ever see here.
A rambling of thoughts as you can plainly see which are perfectly in sync with my mood and thought patterns over the last two weeks. With everything that’s been happening, it all feels like kind of a blur. Going through the motions, but not really being present in mind.
This is all starting to frighten me as I feel myself slipping into that place that I so easily go to. I wake up each day hoping that somehow this time will be different. That just maybe I will realize in time to do something before it spirals. We’ll soon see I guess.
Goodbye blue monday … until tomorrow.
