The snowflakes.. they melt into my tears and you can’t tell which is which

I sit here at my kitchen table

Looking out into a sea of white

Sipping a warm hot chocolate, yet still feeling a coolness stir inside of me

I wonder where you are right now,

what you are doing or whether you even read here

I try to understand you but I can’t pretend anymore

Why is loving you so hard

what are you afraid of

If the world ended tomorrow, we wouldn’t know how great we would be together

because we would be exactly that … great

I can love you like you need to be loved

I can kiss you like you have never been kissed before

I can squeeze your hand softly to let you know things will be ok when they don’t seem to be

I can be all that you need because I need you

You may not be good for me but I know that you are for me

How crazy is that

You cannot pretend that I am not here because I am

You know that I am and your heart knows that I am

so what’s your deal

I can fill that big space of yours ever so nicely don’t you think

DON’T YOU THINK

There is no pretending you see, its just you and me

as it should be

But for now I will venture out into the white

and I will cry

but you won’t know that

because it is snowing outside